I’ve decided that the time is right for me to be openly secular. The inspiration for the timing of this “coming out” is a video I saw on Facebook today.
Gratitude and a Happy Ego
I finally started a blog last night.
It’s kind of a big deal for me because one of my goals is to be brave and to speak my truth. I am still speaking through my writing, but my hope is that it will eventually lead to my actual spoken word, face-to-face with other people, most or all of the time. That is not to say that I’m going around lying all the time. I am actually a very honest and truthful person. But my trick is the things I don’t say – the things that I keep to myself. I have thoughts, feelings and responses about topics that can be controversial, or spawn judgment from others with strong opinions, that I keep to myself because of my fears of conflict, judgment and rejection. I love, and I am inspired by the song “Brave,” sung by Sara Bareilles, from her fourth studio album, The Blessed Unrest (2013). When asked about the song in interviews, Sara shares that she thinks that “there’s so much honor and integrity and beauty in being able to be who you are, [and] it’s important to be brave because by doing that you also give others permission to do the same.” These are things I want in my life: honor, integrity, beauty and the people around me (including myself) to feel willing and able to stand up and be and share who they truly are. In the end, it’s all about love and acceptance.
But I wonder what would happen if you
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly, I wanna see you be brave.
— Sara Bareilles and Jack Antonoff
Here’s where the gratitude comes in. My expectation is that I would write and no one would read it. And, because I am fighting some fear, I was OK with that. But within hours of my first post, I got my first “Like.” It was from a blogger named Eddy, whose writing has those courageous qualities I hope to achieve for myself. And because of this simple form of acceptance, my needy ego is very happy. I’m so grateful for the positive feedback and the speed in which it was delivered. This will motivate me to share more.A thankful shout-out to a brave and kind blogger, Eddy, for my first “Like”: http://eddybcruz.wordpress.com/